In the “Pit” part two

You may have noticed that I missed a day of blogging. Saturday was a rough day. I got the fever and other complications. Today is better so far. My numbers have started to come up and that is a wonderful sign. I am still waiting on the most important number for today. It will tell me how my immune system is doing.

As I thought about being in the “Pit”, it dawned on me the similarities between my time in the “Pit” and Jesus’ time in the “Pit”. The Bible doesn’t say much about what happened from Friday night until Sunday morning when Jesus resurrected. Was Jesus in that place with Abraham that had a great gulf affixed between Abraham and the sinners? (Right now I wish I had a concordance with me so I could look stuff up and give the Scripture references.) Was Jesus in pain? Was He still suffering for us? With each question I try to answer I find a new one. Let’s look at what we know.

1. From Friday to Sunday was a waiting game. (Even if Jesus was preaching salvation to those around Him, He was still waiting for the resurrection and the restoration to His place in glory. I am waiting for my restoration to my former glory {5’4 & a half inches on a good day with a normal immune system}).

2. Sunday morning resurrection. (I’m waiting from my blood numbers to come back up. Even though Jesus said, “It is finished.” while on the cross, He still had to wait. Once the time was right, the grave couldn’t hold Jesus anymore. When my numbers come back up this hospital can’t hold me anymore.)

There are other things I could bring up, but let me sum it up this way. There are times that you have to wait. It is during the times that things get tough, but that is where the faith comes in and that is where you grow. If everything we wanted came quickly, we would be spoiled children of God. Happy growing. Pastor Bob

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In the “Pit”

These next few days, the medical people refer to my condition as being in the “pit.” My blood counts are down and now we just wait. Unfortunately, they expect you to get some sort of infection when you don’t have an immune system. So far so good. God is good.

I did notice something about myself that I didn’t like, however. I found myself getting irritated easily. I was irritated that I had to have an IV for awhile because it hinders my movement and keeps me from going outside. The stuff in it is keeping me alive. I should be thankful.

I was irritated that I couldn’t sleep well. The drugs mess with you. I should be thankful that I have the chance to have such wonderful medical help.

The list goes on and on. Now I choose to be thankful and not gripe. I can’t afford to go down that trail again. I hope that you will join me in thanking God for what He has done for you. Pastor Bob

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Day 10- Winter is coming!!!

This is the place that I walk when I am allowed to go outside. To the left is the U of Penn medical school and to the right is the right is the hospital. What a beautiful walk. Today was a great day. I felt tired because of some drugs but I didn’t feel bad, thanks God. Tomorrow is the day that all my blood numbers will bottom out. Then we just wait. God is in control. Pastor Bob
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Day Nine- Re-enforcements are on the way.

Yesterday was an amazing day. Early in the morning I was introduced to my new student nurse. As I got to know here, I found out that her husband and her are on-fire-for-God Christians. Praise God. Then another nursing student stopped by because she found out I was a Christians. I met a number of people throughout the day and then to cap it off, my evening nurse was a Pentecostal Christian from India. Is my God in control or what? I felt like Elijah did after he told God that he was the only one serving God and God finally told him to get back to work and “By the way, I have 7000 others that haven’t bowed to Baal.” It is so encouraging to see that others are living for God around you and close to you. We are not serving God alone.

On another note, I found out that I can go outside. So yesterday and today I took a walk outside. It was very encouraging to leave the hospital ward after a week. It was a beautiful walk around the U of Penn campus by the hospital. Praise God.

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They stabbed me again, twice. The adventures of Day 8

Ah, the adventures of this disease and all the medications needed to defeat it. My blood counts continue to fall which is expected. The platelets are high enough that I still need the blood thinners shots but the other counts are low enough that I get the Neupogen shots. So now I get stabbed twice a day even though I have a perfectly good PIC line to place medications. I think it is part of the Fraternal order of nurses that require shots be given to inflict pain on patients. Just kidding. They do a nice job. I barely even cry anymore when they give them to me.

Congrats to all those ‘tough as nail” people that have no issue with stabbing themselves with needles. I’m just not built that way. Anyway, I am taking medicines for all kinds of stuff. As mentioned, I take medicine for blood clots, to prevent viruses, a couple of anti nausea medicines, and a drug for phosphates. Doesn’t this stuff help you glow in the dark?There are about 10 more medicines.

Have you ever noticed that all drugs have to have great names? The legend of Zelda was a game. I take Zocor I think. Drugs all have to have Zs or Vs or Xs or something that makes them sound cool even thought taking them may cause bla,bla,bla (2 minutes of disclaimers). Oh well, God has been helping me. I had a good Monday and today is going to be a good day. God bless. Pastor Bob

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Eyes on the future

We are all used to planning for things. Maybe a long-awaited vacation, or rewarding yourself for accomplishing something big with, let’s say, a new car. We don’t have trouble visualizing that kind of waiting but when it comes to eternal things it is harder for us to imagine things. I guess the reason is that we don’t know anyone that has come back for heaven and said, “Wow, it was great! You have to go!”

We hear from people that have gone on vacations to Europe or the Grand Canyon and they tell us what to see and how great it was but heaven is much more difficult to quantify.

The Apostle Paul knew about as much about eternity as anyone and he made an amazing statement. “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God.” (Rom. 8:18-19)

We don’t quite know what eternity is about but we know that it is better. I am looking past this life to eternity. In fact that helps me look past this procedure to the improved life on the other side of stem cell translate. God is still here with me, even though I don’t like it here. He is here.

As a side note, it was great to Skype into my congregation today. It lifted me up. I have a wonderful congregation and they encouraged me so much. Pastor Bob

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My grace is sufficient.

Today my blood counts dropped as expected. With that drop my energy dropped as expected. I have just laid around today and slept. But God is good and I am reminded of the response that God gave to Paul when he asked God to remove the thorn in his flesh. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness?”(2 Cor. 12:9)

It is in this weakness that you find God’s power. In is in this weakness that you discover more about the Creator of the universe. It is in this weakness that He ministers to you and lets us know that He is still there in the midst of the trial. So I am pressing on, day by day, with God’s help and energy. God bless you. Pastor Bob

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Waiting on your calling

We Americans hate to wait. We want fast food at home cooked in the microwaves and spend fortunes on fast food joints rather than taking the time to enjoy a meal. That’s the way it is in America. However, as much as we want to, we can’t rush God. Continuing with the story of David, we see in 1 Samuel 24, that David had the chance to take matters in his own hands and kill King Saul. Look what he says to Saul after he spares Saul’s life ,

“May the LORD judge between you and me. And may the LORD avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you.  As the old saying goes, ‘From evildoers come evil deeds,’ so my hand will not touch you. “Against whom has the king of Israel come out? Who are you pursuing? A dead dog? A flea? May the LORD be our judge and decide between us. May he consider my cause and uphold it; may he vindicate me by delivering me from your hand.”

Dave was given multiple chances to take Saul’s life but he didn’t strike back. Wow. Notice in his statement that he left things in the Lord’s hands. That is hard to do when things don’t happen as fast as we want them to happen. We get impatient and try to force things to happen. But God has a calling on all of us for something. He designed us to be good at certain things and the struggles is getting to the place that we think we should be.

Look at David’s life. The prophet Samuel anointed him king. But David went back to taking care of sheep. What happens next is kind of funny in David’s life. King Saul needed someone to calm his nerves so through a series of events ended up with David playing his harp for him. All those cold nights under the stars playing his harp to calm the sheep paid off. He got a new job working for the king.

Unfortunately, it wasn’t a full-time job and David went back to taking care of stinking sheep. Then the whole Goliath thing happen and David now has his picture on the front of People Magazine. There he is holding Goliath’s sword and his head. (yuk) David is on top of the world. He now leads his own troops, ends up marrying the king daughter, is winning battles for the king. Life is good.

Unfortunately, King Saul is jealous and you know the story David runs for his life. For years he runs for his life. It was a difficult time for him. “What about the anointing by Samuel? God said I would be king and I am living in a cave leading a bunch of misfits.” (my words-I have a vivid imagination) But David learned the many lessons that God had for him during the waiting. He learned obedience, courage, faithfulness, loyalty, etc. He learned not to hold to things and valued people more.

What is the lesson for us? Do what you know to do but learn in the waiting for God’s direction. Don’t try to force things. God bless you. Pastor Bob

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Now we wait.

Today I had my stem cell translate and things went well. I got 5 million brand new bouncing baby stem cells. It will take a couple of weeks for them to do their job. So we wait. I am told that my immune system will disappear in a few days and then the fun starts. God is in control. Thanks for your prayers. Pastor Bob

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Day two-The calm before the storm.

Yesterday was the Pic line and chemo and in general getting set up in the hospital. Today is kind of a rest day. Nothing major happens today. Tomorrow I get the stem cells and then I will begin to feel the effects of the chemo. They tell me that once my platelets and red blood cells go below a certain level, I get a blood transfusion. According to my PA, no one has made it through without a transfusion. So pray. It is in God’s hands. Love you all. Pastor Bob

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